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Happy Astro Day

Today is my birthday and I woke early, 5.31am to be exact with the thought of what a crazy year it has been.

Crazy in everyway. Somethings have remained the same, some relationships have grown and become stronger and some have gone from my life. New opportunities have arisen and new outlooks are in place. If I was a betting gal, I would have lost the farm if I had to predict what has happened over the past year.

I have always struggled with birthdays, too much emphasis placed on them. Disappointment, unsurity on how and what to celebrate. Always a drama that pops up on and around the day.  Oddly this year feels different. Not sure why but different in a good way.

I suppose I have been specific about who I spend the day with and how I spend the day. I advertised early to the family about the day and told them my small hopes and wishes and how I wanted to celebrate. Controlling? Maybe but after 38 years of bullshit around my birthday, where the dramas arise (usually people argue) which makes the day about everything else but the birthday, this is way on ensuring I am safe from the crazy.

But hey, it's only 6.27am, who knows what will happen?:-)

So my plans for the day? Writing, brunch with The Contessa, writing, dogwalking at the beach, dinner with my family, sister and parents. A crying shame my little bro can't be with us but I will raise a champagne in his honour.

My plans for the following year?

Well, I thought long and hard about this one. No plans but aspirations as such.

1. Enjoy my writing and learn more
   
2. Take care of my body and soul
3. Tell those who matter they matter
4. Stay present
5. Stay calm and carry on
6. Protect myself
   

If I think of anymore I will update through the day.

I am grateful to have another year here to keep up the good fight. The past six months I have been more myself than ever before and this has allowed me to expose my true skills, my true identity and my truth to people. The love that has surrounded me over the past year from dear family and friends, has helped me get through, what was the hardest year of my life. This is the best gift. For a while I thought I wasn't going to make it and yet here I am again. And this time, I know things will be different.

So I share my gift with you. My favorite poem.

A Birthday by Christina Rossetti

My heart is like a singing bird
Whose nest is in a water'd shoot;
My heart is like an apple-tree
Whose boughs are bent with thickset fruit;
My heart is like a rainbow shell
That paddles in a halcyon sea;
My heart is gladder than all these
Because my love is come to me.

Raise me a dais of silk and down;
Hang it with vair and purple dyes;
Carve it in doves and pomegranates,
And peacocks with a hundred eyes;
Work it in gold and silver grapes,
In leaves and silver fleurs-de-lys;
Because the birthday of my life
Is come, my love is come to me.

2 Responses to ‘Happy Astro Day’

1. holymotherofgod says:

May 20, 2010 at 9:00am

Allow me to be the first to post a happy birthday message here =) DO enjoy yourself and celebrate all there is that is good in your life. Happy Birthday Dreamweaver !

2. Minerva says:

May 20, 2010 at 1:11pm

Happy Birthday Kate.

I am so glad to see you make it through the last year, it has obviously been a tricky one. Only knowing you through this blog, I am constantly amazed at how open and sharing you are about yourself and the demons that you wrestle with. It has definitely helped me to keep pushing on during the last year as I know I am not alone.

Oddly enough, I share some of your birthday traumas. There always seems to be much bigger dramas happening at the time ie. business sprialling downhill, loved one having surgery the next day. I am learning to put my expectations away and just delight in any surprise on the day.

Enjoy and take the day as it comes.

May the next year continue to express the authentic you and be happy in it.

Namaste
Minerva

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